Back in November I read a post on (in)courage by Holley Gerth talking about God size dreaming. At the end of the post Holley puts out a call for 99 bloggers to join her in pursuing their God size dreams in 2013.
Something inside of me stirred and I quickly filled out the application. And when I got to the part about what my God size dream was I wrote about my desire to own my daycare center. Yet later on that day God kept reminding me that was not the God size dream he revealed to me. Feeling like I have to be honest with Holley, I sent her an email to tell her my true God size dream and why it was hard to admit it.
You see orphans have always broken my heart and 15 years ago God gave me a God size dream to open an orphanage and an adoption agency called “God’s Precious Gifts”. I started the process but ran into several roadblocks which made feel like it wasn’t a God size dream but more of my own dream. Fast forward to now and I am still single without a husband or children. And to follow my God size dream means that I would be placing children in homes while my home still remains empty. I knew following this God size dream would be hard but I wanted to be obedient.
Then on December 3rd, I received the email to tell me I was on the team. I screamed so loud I’m pretty sure that I caused a small earthquake. I started to cry tears of joy and kept sending up praises to God.
I kept saying “Thank you God” over and over again. It was the love letter I needed to follow his dream again. It was the prompting I needed to step out of the boat and focus on walking towards God’s dream.
I will admit I have mixed emotions of excitement and fear but a part of me is feeling alive again. My imagination is starting to pour out again on how I can help orphans. Wanting to make sure I wasn’t out of the loop I started reading Holley’s book “You’re Already Amazing”. Her words of encouragement throughout the book were refreshing to my soul. It also was another confirmation that God had placed me in a safe haven to dream big again.
Here are the specific prayers and desires of my heart that I’m hoping God will use in his God size dream.
I want orphans to feel the love of God
I want to help clothe and provide shelter for orphans
I want to create a place where they feel loved as they wait for their adoptive families
I want them to know they are part of an eternal family
I want to help children in Africa
I am not to sure what the next 6 months will look like but I’m hoping you will join me on this journey. Please be sure to keep me in your prayers and stop back by to hear more about this exciting God size dream. Also if you would like to learn more about the team and how cool Holley can be check out the following post. http://holleygerth.com/meet-your-god-sized-dream-team/